✚ 1-800-ina ✚

despite art and writing being the two things i spend majority of my time doing, truthfully.. an artist nor writer feel like fully accurate descriptions. i make weird things for my enjoyment and satisfaction, and i enjoy sharing it too.

it is in my best interest to make things and perceive my life as poetic, i like to make things that are psychologically charged involving horror, and intimacy. everything is an attempt at conveying a story or a feeling that i'm currently interested in.. captivity, memories and dreams, bodily vulnerability and pain, obsession, cuteness and misperception. at the moment, medical and clinical motifs are the biggest influence on me.. for several years even.

dentity erosion control surveillance and unethical experimentation

love consumption devour destructive sacrificial

resist clear moral framing allow discomfort to remain unresolved

early life

2001-2019 - chapter: early life doomed from birth. eternal sick, in clinics until surgery. weird corners of the internet; chronically online, doxxed, post all day. childhood mental illness. no friends, eating disorder. online identities. dolls were only friend, 20+ of them. traumatic incidents. bed rotting before it was 'cool.

2019-2020 - chapter: beginning of adulthood first year of school. meet everyone that i needed to. hellish school, but fun because the people. drama, conflict, laugh. first taste of independence. skip class to hang out. traumatic incidents. nearly fail and ultimately withdraw from school. suicidal, leave home, and live alone.

2020-2024 - chapter: the hikikomori, shut-in, country recluse online school, give up on school, bed rotting again. cry in public transport. pandemic. procure drawing supplies. mysterious source of income, live within room. art becomes special interest, 14 hours per day. write + draw visual novel 'yuro's symphony' in a few months, (still unreleased like many endeavours, despite being finished for so long.. just needs music- i will release it when i figure something out.) socialize with animals, but otherwise avoid, avoid, avoid. grow cult member length hair past tailbone.

2024-2026 - chapter: snoopy dreamer era to hikikomori recovery live within dreams and heavily document it, sleep sometimes 12 hours per day. dreamscape more real than physical world. days without speaking. traumatic incident. large source and inspiration for art. move to big city. start making videos, experimenting with more things. chop hair above shoulders. begin recluse recovery, fail and start over. make things online with online friends. balance between isolation and living life. suicidal, but in a less scary way. embrace being retarded.

2026 - current chapter: ??? unknown.

information

sometimes, i don't like to enjoy sweet things if there isn't something rotten and tarnished to go along with it. it makes the sweetness all the more potent, and the rot even cuter. dichotomy.. i love contrasting themes. inabot says: a festering wound, or black mold can be beautiful if you zoom in close enough to see all the tiny parts.

but, as much as i love weird and scary things. i love cute stuff even more. i adore it so much, i love cuteness.. it's so important to me. it's something i began to love all on my own. i would rather kill myself than live in a world without cute. i wouldn't want to be on this planet!

closing

you can figure out more about "ina" by finding my website, my substack blog, reading my interviews, watching my videos or reading my short stories all across the web. if you are lucky, you might be able to reach me in a dream.

references

1. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/International_Red_Cross_and_Red_Crescent_Movement
2. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Complex_post-traumatic_stress_disorder
3. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Medical_torture
4. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hospital